I wanted answers to all my questions. At 30, if he can't decide what he wants to do? What is it for? To get me out of that situation, my family, my brother, my friends from all over the nation give me the strength and courage to move forward with life. But unless, and until you go through pain in life, you don't know what it feels like, it's easy for people to say that, but it's very hard to let it go in life. I cried, I scream, I ask God why this happened to me. The thing that hurts me the most is that I made all my dreams come true with him. I didn't know it would happen otherwise I would have stopped it from happening. Somehow I would make it work. It was a nightmare. He ends up getting married to the girl he always told me he didn't like and she's my husband's cousin. How awkward would this situation be when we come face to face at some family function. But I know I won't feel embarrassed because I haven't done anything I should be ashamed of