These depressive symptoms led Charlie to have a nervous breakdown. Charlie thought that his Aunt Helen's death was his responsibility and constantly replayed the night of her death in his mind. After the death of his best friend, Charlie had difficulty searching for a sense of “being” because he kept repressing everything that constantly reminded him of his pain. Charlie tried to join his sister's clique, but it didn't work because they thought he was another person and not a friend. He tried to please everyone, but when he couldn't, he blamed himself. The death of his best friend and aunt prevented Charlie from having a close relationship with anyone because he might lose them. For example, at first he was afraid to befriend Sam and Patrick because he didn't know if they would accept him, and if they became friends, he was afraid that they wouldn't remain his friends. Additionally, Charlie experienced flashbacks and blackouts, as well as a search for a sense of “being” and a fear of having a close relationship with someone. For example, every time he was with Sam and they were about to have sexual intercourse, he had a flashback of his aunt molesting him at the age of five. These events lead to his